Man, I'm lost for words. All I can say is that, having to put an animal down yourself is the worst thing I can imagine doing. I've done it too many times (at the SPCA) that nowadays just a thought makes me sick in the stomach.
I hope you're feeling a tad bit better by now my friend. Take pleasure in knowing that you did the best thing for him. You gave him a good life, made him a friend and in a time of need....you helped him. Yes you did.
The Herp Room
"The day I tried to live, I wallowed in the blood and mud with all the other pigs" - C. Cornell